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- ESSAY, Page 70Walking on the Wild Side
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- By Lance Morrow
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- The part of the self that is Toad of Toad Hall took to the
- open road again.
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- The interior Toad rhapsodized, "Walking is the finest thing
- in the world, but wild walking like this is finer still."
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- Toad's muscles glowed with well-being. He sported a touraco
- feather in his slouch hat. He had walked for days out of
- Kitich, a remote, beautiful camp on the Nyeng River in Northern
- Kenya, and now was skirting the Mathews Range in sandy, thorny
- country. Vultures wheeled over a distant lion kill. Toad was
- walking through heaven.
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- This was the line of march: first bright Lutupen, the
- Samburu guide, with his spear and tribal finery, the
- yellow-and-black-bead cords crisscrossed on his chest, the tops
- of his ears sprouting the bead horns that gave the Samburu
- warrior, Toad thought, an air of medieval imp. Toad admired
- Lutupen's sense of style. Lutupen had slipped a trapezoid of
- broken mirror under his bead headband for decoration, so that
- he now had a kind of third eye, a window in the center of his
- forehead that flashed as he slipped along through the forest.
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- After Lutupen came the mule, Miss Mule, policed by another
- Samburu warrior named (it is true) Livingston. After Miss Mule
- at a cautious distance marched Toad and friends -- the guide
- Chrissie Aldrich, the Kitich Camp manager Ian Cameron and the
- others. And last, the ten donkeys that carried water and food
- (short rations that got shorter as the days passed and the wild
- walking grew more wonderful). The donkeys advanced along the
- trail like a party of schoolgirls in dove-gray uniforms,
- sociable and disorderly, the sheer din of their progress driving
- off elephants and lions and all other wilder beasts as Toad's
- parade advanced. Toad surveyed the line of march with a jump of
- pleasure. En passant with his olive-wood walking stick, he poked
- cannonballs of elephant dung and judged how long ago the beasts
- had passed. Now and then they came upon Samburu tending herds
- of high-humped Boran cattle. But mostly they walked in solitude.
- Toad savored the wild walker's joys -- the peace of utter
- remoteness, the little thrill of vulnerability and self-testing.
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- The jerry cans on the donkeys' backs got lighter. Toad the
- linguist asked Lutupen in Swahili, "Wapi maji?" (Where is
- water?) Then after finding a few dung-fouled cattle watering
- holes, he learned to be more precise: "Wapi maji mazuri?" (Where
- is good water?) At length they fell to quarreling over water and
- stopped speaking to one another for hours at a time.
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- One day, pointing the march back into the mountains, on
- steep, thickly wooded tracks, thirsty and quarrelsome, they came
- upon an emerald pool in the forest, a sweet, shaded secret. Toad
- drank water for half an hour without stopping. That night they
- slaughtered a goat and feasted. Lutupen hung the remaining goat
- meat in a tree above him as he slept curled up on a flat rock,
- and in the morning Toad found leopard tracks around the camp.
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- But that day as Toad tramped on through the undiscovered
- country, his eye was suddenly transfixed by the sight beside
- the old cattle track of four Eveready size-D batteries lying in
- the dust. It was as if a passing whaleship had answered Ahab:
- "The white whale? Yeah, we killed him yesterday." An old joke.
- Toad suffered a deflation.
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- Well, he reflected later, the planet can no longer sustain
- the luxury of pure wild walking, which may in any case carry a
- certain taint of the elitist or the narcissist, a demand for
- virginity. (Americans and Europeans have always liked to think
- of themselves as the first white men ever to have walked into
- some wild place.)
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- Wild walking intoxicates the Toad. But all walking is a
- matter of style. In finer sensibility, Toad might admit that a
- tramp through hyena droppings would rank pretty low on the
- evolutionary scale of walking.
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- William Wordsworth and Samuel Taylor Coleridge did not
- fight over drinking water as they rambled through the Lake
- District. In any case, the important thing to Toad was that
- walking put the mind in motion, and might even set poetry in
- motion. A line of verse is a march of poetic feet, the trudge
- of iambs and shuffle of dactyls, the ambulations of language.
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- Toad simultaneously loved walking as an escape from
- thought, a way of setting the world itself astir, like a
- cycloramic dream, so that it flowed through his eye to his mind
- at the speed that suits the total creature best -- all higher
- speeds being a mere greed for frivolous accelerations, for wind
- in the face.
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- The best walking is a liberation, and a way of thinking. A
- creature like Toad is not a tree, but is designed to move
- across earth's surface, perpendicular to gravity and companioned
- by time. Somehow walking, thought Toad in his mellower moments,
- makes time a passage that is not only bearable but also sweet
- and festooned with an everlastingly changing array of scenery.
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- So many kinds of walking did Toad savor. Beach walking took
- him along the edge of eternity. Night walking carried him
- through another mysterious fluid, darkness. Walking populated
- his solitude with multitudes of fancies and inner images, and
- let his mind roam up and down in time. Yet walking in the city
- also gave him sometimes an ecstatic solitude -- a paradoxical
- apartness and serenity.
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- Conversation, Toad thought, was best when walking, since
- talk itself is an ambling. Toad even talked better to himself
- when walking -- though if he moved his lips when doing it, he
- looked like a street crazy. It was at last in the walking that
- Toad's soul, he found, was most at rest.
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- Toad yearned always for the wild walking, of course. But he
- sighed the sigh of resignation. The whole world now is a beaten
- track. Even if Toad went to the moon for a hike, he would find
- footprints there.
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